May 2012

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I know I’ve been gone for quite a while and I really don’t have a reasonable explanation for that. Now, I’m back and will be posting on this blog again. :)

Anyway, for the past few months, I received a lot of blessings and I’m really thankful for everything. As much as I want to elaborate on that, I have to cut this short because it’s almost midnight. I’m starting this habit to sleep before midnight so I can wake up at around 8am. Talk about healthy lifestyle… not!

Don’t worry, I’ll be back soon, though. :)

Family Swimming

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Summer is fast approaching and we can feel it. It’s getting really hot as the days go by. Every day, I feel more and more uncomfortable whenever I’m outside and even when I’m just inside the house.

Last Wednesday night (February 22, 2012), my cousin Bryan and his girlfriend, Suzzane, said they wanted to go swimming. I didn’t think it would push through since it was not really planned and in our family, unplanned summer outings aren’t really our thing. Surprisingly, my tita agreed. I guess she felt the heat of the summer too.

The next day, I have class at 10AM to 12NN, then 3PM to 4:30PM and lastly, 5PM to 8PM. I decided to skip class that day because I really wanted to go swimming with my family. Not only because of the bonding we’ll have but also because it was really hot and a swim would be a really good temporary getaway from the heat.

When I woke up at around 10AM, I waited for my cousins and tita to come home. They went to the grocery to buy some snacks for us to bring to the nearby resort, the good old favorite (er, not really), Circle Island Resort. When they got home at around almost 1PM, we ate lunch and headed to the resort immediately.

Around 3:30PM, Aaron came to the resort too. He’s also been complaining about the heat numerous times before I told him we’re going swimming. I asked him to come. He brought some pizza.

Our passes were only until 5PM. We went home around 5:30PM. Since the resort was just walking distance away from our house, we all walked home soaking wet. We all took a bath at home, then.

It was unplanned but it was definitely fun. I have a feeling that we’ll be going for a swim again, soon.

SUMMER IS HERE!

Spend my life with you :)

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It’s actually nice and irritating sometimes how my feelings can be triggered by something I’ve seen on TV, read on a book, heard from a song, etc. By watching a certain scene in a movie, all the memories I’ve had with a specific someone will come rushing back to me.

Right now, that someone is my boyfriend.

I know I haven’t really introduced him here on my blog so let this post be all about him and what I love about him.

My boyfriend’s name is Aaron and we’ve been together for more than 8 years already.  5 years of that relationship were spent with 4297 miles between us. The remaining 3 years up until present are spent together. He’s almost 7 years older than me. He likes computer stuff, programming and he likes playing Dota. He also likes basketball, but he doesn’t go out that much to play.

So that’s pretty much the basic information I can give you about him.

Here comes the *cheesy* part.

What I love about him is that he never gives up on me. I have my moments, okay. There are time when I like to push people away and whenever I do push him away, he just gives me space but he never lets me go. He’s always there for me. Whenever I’m drowning in my problems, he’s always there to listen to me, listen to me whine about almost everything.

Most of the time, I can’t even make him feel that I’m thankful for his presence, that I’m thankful for the fact that he loves me. I can honestly say that I have a pretty strange way of showing him how I really feel about him. Actually, when I come to think about it, I can’t even remember the last time I appreciated him. But of course, I appreciate him more than anyone in the world.

I may have been very negligent of our relationship, I may be insensitive or oversensitive, I may not be appreciative enough, but deep in my heart, I can’t see my future without him as my partner in life.

Aaron, I love you and I want to spend my life with you <3

Reality

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“My Reality” by Daniel Grospe

Last night, I had a funny yet annoying encounter with this guy singing on the video.

I went to Victory Molino to attend a Youth Night Service along with my cousin. My tita asked us to buy some ice at a Mini Stop convenience store nearby so we did. Before we even enter the store, I saw some guys inside. I know I’m definitely a head-turner and I would easily catch these guys’ attention, but I didn’t mind them because I got used to all the stares I get with my gigantic boobies, okay.

Later on, when I got the ice and I reached the counter to pay up, my cousin was standing there, waiting for me. And that’s when she told me that we know one of those guys who kept staring on my breasts. I turned around to get a good look on this guy’s face and I recognized him instantly. He’s the same guy singing on the video I shared on this post.

My cousin told me that the moment we entered the convenience store, he stared at my boobies and had a small laugh with his friends. I even noticed them making small excuses to look where I was getting the ice from the convenience store.

While I was paying on the counter, I saw him signaled something to his guy friends. He gestured something that meant like he’s gonna go out to get some smoke. And when we got out, we saw him sitting there outside smoking a cigarette.

Funny how he performs on stage with all those strong convictions about the “divine exchange working in him” but outside the church, he stares at a girl with huge boobs and laughs with his friends about it while looking at that girl then goes out for a smoke. Is that really what you call the “real God you’ll see through me“? Wow.

Then I guess that’s his reality then.

PS. I was there in that conference where he performed that song.

Celebrating Valentines ♥

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Like most people, I used to be a girl who wanted sweet surprises from my boyfriend on Valentines day, but I suddenly had a change of heart recently. I’m not really sure how but I think it’s because if you really love someone, you don’t wait for Valentines to do something special for her. Right?

Anyway, I’m here to tell you about my Valentines.

Aaron and I didn’t really have plans for today. I honestly thought he wasn’t coming over tonight because he was just here last night, so I kinda made plans with my friends. I was supposed to sleeping over at Ate Rio’s house because we will have our Field Study observation the morning after Valentines. But when I found that Aaron will come visit me on Valentines, I had to cancel my plans with my classmates and they understood naman.

We had our examination from 5PM to 7:30PM. Ate Rio said she’d take us out tonight to the buffet nearby. I asked Aaron if I can go with my classmates then meet him afterwards, he said yes. So after our exam, we headed straight to the restaurant with our professor.

After eating dinner, I went home. Aaron was waiting for me on my way home. When I got where he is, he gave me this box of Ferrero Rocher chocolates. I wanted to shout and jump but I was too shy and too excited to go home because of Emma. But of course, I thanked him for it!

When we got home, I played with Emma for a while then later on, Aaron and I just watched anything that was on TV. When we got bored with the TV shows, we started watching CSI episodes that he downloaded.

A few minutes past midnight, we kissed and he went home.

It was just a simple day for Aaron and me, but it was something I won’t forget. It’s our 3rd Valentines to celebrate together. The first one was a disaster because we kinda broke up. The second one was quite memorable because he gave me a bouquet of roses (which was my first time to receive flowers from a guy!) and I cooked something for him. And now, this year, we celebrated it as simple as we could. It wasn’t big, we didn’t have dinner reservations or anything pricey, but just being with each other, being our usual selves, doing what we are comfortable with… It’s really something.

So, thank you, Aaron! <3

PS. Nice choice with the chocolates! Flowers are good but I liked the chocolates more! ü

Happy 1st Birthday, Emma!

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Yesterday (February 9, 2012) was Emma’s first birthday. I can’t believe it’s already been a year since she came to our lives. It seemed like it was just a week ago when I found out Suzzane was pregnant and waiting at the hospital for her delivery seemed like it was just yesterday.

Honestly, I’ve been very happy ever since we had Emma. She’s been a bundle of joy, an instant stress-reliever. Even though her parents (my cousin Bryan and Suzzane) went through a lot, I honestly think that having Emma as their baby makes it all worth it.

Emma is a genuinely happy kid. She likes to play around a lot, she’s very hyper and very malambing too. She likes to kiss us and play with us a lot. And coming home from a long day at school, seeing her, holding her and playing with her takes away all the exhaustion and stress from school.

Moving on…

Yesterday’s celebration wasn’t that big. It was just among us, family. Her real birthday celebration would be on the 18th. For yesterday’s celebration, we just had spaghetti, fried chicken and cake. After eating, we spent the rest of the day bonding with each other and that’s taking pictures, playing with Emma, eating again and playing Temple Run.

What makes it more exciting and interesting is that Emma is just starting to learn how to walk so we all get giddy whenever she takes a few steps every now and then.

To sum it all up, I had fun with my family yesterday. Emma’s first birthday was well-spent.

Emma, if ever you get to see this in the future, please always remember that I love you so much and I will always be here for you. I wish you all the best in life and I will definitely make sure you get to enjoy life as much as we do whenever we are with you!

I think that would be all, but before I end this, I would just like to give a random fact about Emma. Her real name isn’t Emma. It’s quite far from her real name. Her real name is Aiden Franczesca, but we call her Emma because we wanted her name to be Emma Franczesca. Her mom insisted on naming her Aiden and since we have no say about it, she was named Aiden, but for us, she will always be Emma. :p

Thank you!

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January was a tough month for me. Even if it is my birthday month, I still can’t say that it was my month. To be honest, up until now, I can’t believe that my birthday month was wasted on something really stupid and unimportant.

I’ve gone through mild and severe depression attacks last January. It was really hard for me, especially when I felt that the people I lean on to are also drifting away from me. I almost wanted to give up, but thank God I didn’t. Thank God that I realized that there are people whose problems are far more bigger than mine and that I should be thankful with who I am and what I have.

This post is not about to tell everyone about that experience, but to thank everyone who were able to put up with my shits last month. I was a total wreck but you never gave up on me. I may not be able to make you feel or show you how thankful I am for everything you’ve done for me, but in my heart, I owe my life to all of you because if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t be here anymore.

Somehow, you made me believe that there’s still more to life than just being sad and depressed. Even if I’m like this, you made me feel like I’m still unique and one of a kind, so thank you. To all of you.

“I think we should rest here for a while…”

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Earlier this evening, in our major class, our professor gave this kind of a psychological question wherein all of our answers have its corresponding meaning and I was so amazed that it suits me perfectly.

Our professor gave us this particular situation to picture ourselves in: We were in a dessert and we were riding on a camel. After a long journey and still hasn’t reached our destination, the camel stopped. Now, the question is, what do we say to the camel for taking us there?

Most of my classmates answered “Thank you”. One of them answered “Why did you bring me here?” and another one answered “Please lead me back home.”

My answer was “I think we should rest here for a while.”

After answering, our professor revealed to us what it meant. The dessert and the long journey is our relationship with someone special to us. When the camel stopped, it also meant that the relationship stopped or paused. Whatever we say to the camel is the way we look at things during a break-up.

My answer suits me perfectly. That is how I actually see things with my relationship with Aaron. Yes, there are times that I get tired in our relationship and it makes me want to give up. But I try my best not to give up. If I can still hold on, then I will hold on. Just give me a few days to cool down or to miss you then I would talk to you again. Sometimes, I just want to have my peace and quiet time with myself, think about why I held on for too long, think about my future with and/or without you, think about how miserable my life would be without you. But in the end, I always go running back to you because I know that it’s the right choice. I know and I believe that you are the one for me.

Even if I stopped talking to you, it still didn’t stop me from looking forward to experiencing great and new things with you. So if there are times that I choose not to talk to you, please don’t ever let me go. I’m just resting for a while because I think we both need it. Thank you.

Forever 21

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Today (January 23, 2012), I celebrated my 21st birthday. I didn’t really have any plans for today, but I know I wanted to go out. The original plan was that Aaron and I would go to MOA, just the two of us, but since we’re not really on very good terms right now, I decided to go alone. At 12:30AM of my birthday, my sister knocked on my door and insisted that she wants to come with me to MOA so I brought her with me.

When we got there, the place was packed with people. We were looking for the comfort room but then we got lost among all the people strolling around so we just went to World Chicken and ate late lunch.

After our late lunch, we strolled around for a bit. We saw this dragon dance/show coming our way so we decided to watch it.

Then we headed to the bay side. I really wanted to ride the so-called “MOA Eye” because 2 years ago, Aaron and I rode a ferris wheel and it started to give me this overwhelming feeling. Ever since then, I developed this thing about ferris wheels.

The ferris wheel is so big that I couldn’t even take a decent shot of it as a whole. This is the most decent-almost-whole picture I got of it. So yes, my sister and I rode the so-called “MOA Eye”.

We were so high from the ground. It was very overwhelming. I was a bit nervous, to be honest, because I’ve never been that high from the ground (well, except when I’m on a plane).

This is our view from the top. I can’t look down directly, I get nervous most of the time but the ride was awesome. It didn’t take long, though. I think it lasted for about 10 minutes or less. Something like that.

The ride only went for one whole spin, that is the spin when the ferris wheel is still picking up passengers from the bottom. For P150 per head, it was okay. The gandola was airconditioned, anyway.

After the ride, my sister and I went home to our family. My cousin, Bryan, cooked his famous spaghetti while we bond over some nose pore strips along with our other cousin, BF.

We didn’t take that much photos at home because we were too busy eating.

All in all, I had fun today even if I wasn’t really expecting much. My family made me feel special and loved. Even if some of my friends forgot my birthday, I didn’t mind because well, we’re not perfect, right?

So thank you, Lord for this wonderful day!